My birthday is here! I woke up not feeling any different, yet today is a special milestone. 40 is an age my friends and I always dreaded reaching…everything seemed to freeze once that number is hit.
I’m in a feeling of mild disbelief, yet grateful of everything I been through in my life thus far. Feeling surprised, but looking forward to more days ahead. I have so much to live for…planning for my wedding (still no date and limited funds, but it will happen), seeing my nieces and nephew grow up, and seeing my poetry and writing flourish even more. I look forward to apply my creativity towards my working life also. Keeping the toddlers entertained in the classroom.
When I turned 30, I asked my mother if she felt any anxiety when she reached that age, since I was feeling a bit nervous at the time. ‘No, I didn’t feel anything about reaching that’, she responded. She was so casual, but it also taught me to embrace time because we have so little of it. Now that I’m celebrating 40, I wish to have her here to share the moment. I realize she’s always watching me, telling me ‘Don’t worry, you’ll be okay’.
So today I’m celebrating my special day, my 40th birthday. And I’ll enjoy every moment.