Month: March 2018

March 24, 2018: Family Time

Today was a day spent with family. Andy and I went to a birthday lunch for his niece this afternoon. She turned 4 years old this week, and already she can’t wait to turn five! Since she begins school next year, it will truly be a milestone event for her and her parents!

After the lunch we went to Clifton, where I visited my mother’s resting place. I make every effort to visit her every month, and since her memorial anniversary was on Thursday, it was meaningful for me to be at her gravesite at this particular time. It was a sacred moment to honor her and reflect on the times we shared together.

March 23, 2018: Friends and Family

Some things I’m thinking about as I’m getting ready today:

  • I may not be able to go to Montclair this evening. I was hoping to attend the talent show hosted by the school I used to work for while living in Essex County, but the timing between getting out of work + commuting from Hunterdon Co. might make things complicated.
  • I’m looking forward to celebrating Andy’s niece’s birthday this weekend. She will be four this week. She’s grown so much. I remember the day she was born!
  • I’m also looking forward to visiting my mother’s resting place on Saturday. It will be after the celebration with Andy’s family. I make it a point in visiting my mom’s resting place once every month.
  • It looks like I’ll be seeing both families (Andy’s and mine) on Easter weekend. Seeing both families on holidays can get a bit complicated, but so far we’ve been able to work it out with minimal stress.

March 22, 2018: Nine Years Later

It’s hard to believe it’s been 9 years since my mother passed away. I went through the motions of today: going to work, tending to my left wrist while managing toddlers, doing what I needed to do for the classroom. Sometimes it’s better to just keep my mind occupied, to think about my mom until later, like right now.

My mother was always very reserved, yet I could always tell that she was always very genuine about her thoughts and feelings. When she spoke, her words truly came from her heart. Sometimes I would call my mom and there would be gaps of silence, but we were both involved in each other’s conversation. I know that may sound odd, since two people naturally feel the need to fill in gaps of silence with an endless stream of words. That wasn’t necessary with Mom. We each understood where the other person was coming from.

I know that Mom is always with me, that she’s never far from me. I wish I could speak to her on the phone one more time though, as I’m enduring this struggle with my wrist, and other life situations. Her presence was always memorable. 

March 20, 2018: Tuesday Thoughts

Went to the orthopedist yesterday. I received a cortisone injection for the pain, yet the doctor informed me that it the discomfort retuns, I should consider surgery to remedy the problem. Surgery is the last thing on my mind right now, but yesterday’s visit was the second time I received the shot. The surgery sounds like the practical option. I’m just too shocked to consider it.

When I came home I thought of the events that led up to me having this issue with my wrist. Most particularly, working in a position that’s taxing on the body, with little compensation. Nothing would make me happier than to find another location where I would be happier. A place where my training would be truly valued, and where my wrist wouldn’t be in constant risk.

Unfortunately, it can’t happen at the moment, and I’m left thinking about solutions to keeping my hand and wrist safe in a taxing environment.

All of these thoughts as Spring begins today. Little signs of the season emerges, which normally make me feel excited.

In two days another anniversary approaches, much darker. I want to speak to her, share my challenges from the past few months, but sadly, I cannot.

March 19, 2018: Monday Morning Thoughts

Today after work I’m visiting the orthopedist. I’m going to address the tendonitis that’s effecting my left wrist as of late. Since I received a cortisone shot in my wrist back in July, the pain subsided until a few weeks ago, and it’s preventing me from doing things that I normally enjoy. I really hope I can take care of this pain at the doctor’s visit, so I can return to doing my hobby.

I really hope to take a walk after I get home from the appointment. It’s been such nice weather the past couple days, so I hope to take a short walk around the neighborhood now that the daylight hours are longer. I need to resume daily activity to stay fit.