When I had the idea of posting daily journal entries at the beginning of 2018, I wasn’t sure that I would make it halfway through the year. I enjoy writing, but I tend to ‘flake out’ of writing after the first few weeks. Yet, here I am, happy to say that I indeed posted entries every day since Jan 1st.
It’s been a pretty eventful first half of the year. My health needed great care, as my hand tendinitis needed to be addressed. I was afraid that I needed surgery, but thanks to an attentive orthopedist, I received 2 months of OT. It certainly helped my hand feel a little better, yet I still feel discomfort when I apply extreme pressure on my hand. Would surgery be the eventual option? It’s possible. For now, I keep my hand brace on at work all day, and I do my hand exercises once a day. And no knitting/crocheting for the time being. It’s a downer to sacrifice one of my hobbies for a while, but I tell myself it will be worth it when the pain in my left hand finally disappears.
The first half of 2018 also brought sadness, as I lost my close friend Johanna. She lost a very tough battle with breast cancer. Johanna was a true fighter until the very end, willing to apply every medical option available to her, until she was certain that there was nothing left to do. When I last spoke to her in early May, Johanna was coming to terms with the severity of her illness. As much as we didn’t want to accept it, she was approaching ‘the end’. Despite this harrowing truth, Johanna remained the compassionate, fun loving self that she always was. Johanna’s memorial was this afternoon, and while it was very somber, I will always remember her fighting spirit, and how she would’ve wanted me to fight for my goals and dreams.
2018 thus far has also brought happiness, since Andy and I have finally begun planning for our wedding. Losing Johanna caused me to think deeply about my plans in life. It can change for us at any time. A week after Johanna’s death, Andy and I began the process of contacting the church where we will get married. As happy as we are about this decision, it’s also brought some unexpected stress, and due to a last minute change we’re searching for a reception venue that’s affordable for our budget. Aside from this, we can’t wait to have the date set in stone.
So far 2018 has brought its share of experiences and life lessons, and the events will continue to unfold in the weeks ahead. No matter what comes my way I must stay focused on my dreams, and pursue the things I truly enjoy.