July 4, 2018: Relaxation

Happy 4th of July everyone! This was an ideal day to just relax and so some mid-summer cleaning. I took this time to re-organize the things that accumulated in my room, so I spent a good hour finding a space for everything. There’s still a couple bags I need to address, but I’m thankful that it’s completed for the most part. I also spent time creating a classroom book for my toddlers tomorrow. Hopefully it won’t fall to pieces by the end of the week, even after it being laminated. 🙂

I very much look forward to beginning The Lovely Bones tonight. Since I’m now finished with work items for the evening, I can take on a couple chapters. I’m still feeling wide awake at 9pm, so that’s also a plus.

July 2, 2018: Tackling Closets

Today I tackled my work closet once again. Although I keep my closet free from accumulating ‘stuff”, every few months I find myself sifting through packs of scrap paper and materials saved for future projects. So it was a huge relief to just remove things I simply didn’t need. Since I came in early, I had the time to focus on this task before I began my shift.

I’m looking forward to tomorrow after work, since the annual fireworks celebration will be held in Flemington. It’s not too far from where I work, so most likely Andy and I will linger in the area so we can find a good spot.


July 1, 2018: Planning Through Humidity

It was an immensely hot day, yet Andy and I made the most of our time. After church and brunch we went to visit a reception venue in Annandale. It was a very lovely space. The venue was part of a golf course. I normally don’t picture myself getting married at such a location, but the person who contacted me was very pleasant, and was willing to meet with us on short notice. The space turned out to be very helpful with what we need, and although I’m not using the space for the actual ceremony, I was told that I could use the bridal suite to prepare myself for the wedding, then head to the church, then return for the reception. It’s something for me to think about. There’s one more space we’re checking out, but I would love to make a decision about a venue very soon.

When we came home, I sat outside for a little while. It still felt humid, but not as oppressive as it did a few hours earlier. It felt so nice to just sit and relax, and hear the music of the birds. It was a sense of peace that I really needed.

June 30, 2018: My Year So Far

When I had the idea of posting daily journal entries at the beginning of 2018, I wasn’t sure that I would make it halfway through the year. I enjoy writing, but I tend to ‘flake out’ of writing after the first few weeks. Yet, here I am, happy to say that I indeed posted entries every day since Jan 1st.

It’s been a pretty eventful first half of the year. My health needed great care, as my hand tendinitis needed to be addressed. I was afraid that I needed surgery, but thanks to an attentive orthopedist, I received 2 months of OT. It certainly helped my hand feel a little better, yet I still feel discomfort when I apply extreme pressure on my hand. Would surgery be the eventual option? It’s possible. For now, I keep my hand brace on at work all day, and I do my hand exercises once a day. And no knitting/crocheting for the time being. It’s a downer to sacrifice one of my hobbies for a while, but I tell myself it will be worth it when the pain in my left hand finally disappears.

The first half of 2018 also brought sadness, as I lost my close friend Johanna. She lost a very tough battle with breast cancer. Johanna was a true fighter until the very end, willing to apply every medical option available to her, until she was certain that there was nothing left to do. When I last spoke to her in early May, Johanna was coming to terms with the severity of her illness. As much as we didn’t want to accept it, she was approaching ‘the end’. Despite this harrowing truth, Johanna remained the compassionate, fun loving self that she always was. Johanna’s memorial was this afternoon, and while it was very somber, I will always remember her fighting spirit, and how she would’ve wanted me to fight for my goals and dreams.

2018 thus far has also brought happiness, since Andy and I have finally begun planning for our wedding. Losing Johanna caused me to think deeply about my plans in life. It can change for us at any time. A week after Johanna’s death, Andy and I began the process of contacting the church where we will get married. As happy as we are about this decision, it’s also brought some unexpected stress, and due to a last minute change we’re searching for a reception venue that’s affordable for our budget. Aside from this, we can’t wait to have the date set in stone.

So far 2018 has brought its share of experiences and life lessons, and the events will continue to unfold in the weeks ahead. No matter what comes my way I must stay focused on my dreams, and pursue the things I truly enjoy.

June 26, 2018: The Planning Begins

More than ever, I want my grandparents to be happy. We only see each other once a month, and it’s a wonderful occasion whenever we gather. Sometimes other members of the immediate family are at their home in Paterson, and it gives us a wonderful moment to share and catch up on our lives. And it’s a joy to see my young niece. I can’t believe she’s going to be four years old in a couple months!

During our last visit, Andy and I shared with them that we began planning our wedding, and we had a date in mind. Since nearly all of my immediate family was there, it made it extra special. Everyone was very excited, especially my grandparents. My grandfather may not be able to attend, due to health reasons, but he was happy that we were finally beginning to plan this moment in our lives.

Before the weekend was done, we discovered a complication in searching for a reception hall that made us reconsider the date we planned on. The search for a venue keeps going, but I’m confident that we will find a place to our liking. We’ve let too much time pass since our engagement, and I lost some special people in my life who would’ve loved to share in our happiness. I refuse to let more time pass and lose more loved ones in the process. Life is truly short for all of us.

June 16, 2018: Heading Home

Andy and I are on our way home. It was a wonderful few days in Wildwood and Cape May. Today was a day reliving memories of where Andy vacationed with his family growing up. We tried visiting a local friend Andy knew during his many trips, but she was in the middle of a family reunion. We will visit another time. Hopefully we can work something out with her in the future, so we will have another place to relax.

We had a great experience at the Windward Motel, and the owners are very laid back, always available to give a helping hand when needed. I’m already looking forward to our next visit, which i hope will be soon.

Andy and I made sure that we stopped at Mack’s Pizza for dinner, then we walked around the boardwalk for the last time. Since it’s Saturday, the area was packed with families and shoppers, but it didn’t bother me so much. It adds to the beauty of the shore town. After some picture-taking, we’re making the journey home.

I feel a pang of sadness upon leaving, but I’m looking forward to the next time I go with my fiance. Wildwood and Cape May is where we make precious memories each and every time. It’s truly our happy place.

June 15, 2018: Cold Springs and Beach Walks

Today Andy and I relaxed at both Cape May and Wildwood. In the afternoon, we had lunch near Cold Springs village. It’s a pretty town near Cape May, with small, summer homes and wild birds and goats throughout the neighborhood. After lunch we returned to Wildwood, where we re-visited Hooked on Books. This time I made sure to pick up a few more books to add to my collection. We then went to have dinner at a really good Italian restaurant, Little Italy. We also made time to walk along the beach and shoreline earlier this evening. Our trip to Wildwood and Cape May is nearly ending, so we wanted to capture as many heartfelt moments as possible.

June 14, 2018: Cape May

Today the weather was much warmer here in Wildwood. It was a beautiful, sunny day, so Andy and I went to the beach shortly after breakfast. I spent some time relaxing, surrounding myself with the sound of the ocean waves. I also spent some time walking along the shoreline with Andy. It was such a calming experience to wade near the ocean! We also took some pictures of the ocean up close.

In the afternoon we went over to Cape May. Since this was where we got engaged two years ago, it holds such meaning for us. We drove around the scenic neighborhoods, then we went to Sunset Beach. Many people flock to this location each and every day to have a perfect view of the sunset. Today it did not disappoint, as orange, yellow and purple hues painted the landscape. Cape May is a truly magical area, and we try to visit every year when we’re visiting South Jersey.

April 28, 2018: Rainy Days and Sugar Lows

I had a very crazy afternoon at work, which Fridays always are. The children were extra loopy due to the rainy day, and my blood sugar kept going low, despite me having glucose tablets to bring it back. During my break I usually eat then write up the classroom highlights sheet to post at the front of my door, with pictures on display. It’s a lot to do in 60 minutes, but when I’m feeling normal I get it done. Yesterday however, the only energy I had was to eat, then write up the highlight sheet. I couldn’t get the photos done, so I emailed then to management to have them (hopefully) printed, so I can post them in the afternoon. Unfortunately it never got done, so I’ll need to post them on Monday morning. Rainy days and sugar lows at work make things very complicated.

During my break I spoke to Andy about my crazy morning, while writing my classroom highlight sheet. He’s a great listener during these times. When I was done, he shared good news with me: our outing we’ve been planning for June went through. It’s going to be exciting to spend a few days away from work. Hopefully my left wrist will feel much better by then also. I enjoy working with my group at work, but time for myself is surely needed.