July 1, 2018: Planning Through Humidity

It was an immensely hot day, yet Andy and I made the most of our time. After church and brunch we went to visit a reception venue in Annandale. It was a very lovely space. The venue was part of a golf course. I normally don’t picture myself getting married at such a location, but the person who contacted me was very pleasant, and was willing to meet with us on short notice. The space turned out to be very helpful with what we need, and although I’m not using the space for the actual ceremony, I was told that I could use the bridal suite to prepare myself for the wedding, then head to the church, then return for the reception. It’s something for me to think about. There’s one more space we’re checking out, but I would love to make a decision about a venue very soon.

When we came home, I sat outside for a little while. It still felt humid, but not as oppressive as it did a few hours earlier. It felt so nice to just sit and relax, and hear the music of the birds. It was a sense of peace that I really needed.

June 30, 2018: My Year So Far

When I had the idea of posting daily journal entries at the beginning of 2018, I wasn’t sure that I would make it halfway through the year. I enjoy writing, but I tend to ‘flake out’ of writing after the first few weeks. Yet, here I am, happy to say that I indeed posted entries every day since Jan 1st.

It’s been a pretty eventful first half of the year. My health needed great care, as my hand tendinitis needed to be addressed. I was afraid that I needed surgery, but thanks to an attentive orthopedist, I received 2 months of OT. It certainly helped my hand feel a little better, yet I still feel discomfort when I apply extreme pressure on my hand. Would surgery be the eventual option? It’s possible. For now, I keep my hand brace on at work all day, and I do my hand exercises once a day. And no knitting/crocheting for the time being. It’s a downer to sacrifice one of my hobbies for a while, but I tell myself it will be worth it when the pain in my left hand finally disappears.

The first half of 2018 also brought sadness, as I lost my close friend Johanna. She lost a very tough battle with breast cancer. Johanna was a true fighter until the very end, willing to apply every medical option available to her, until she was certain that there was nothing left to do. When I last spoke to her in early May, Johanna was coming to terms with the severity of her illness. As much as we didn’t want to accept it, she was approaching ‘the end’. Despite this harrowing truth, Johanna remained the compassionate, fun loving self that she always was. Johanna’s memorial was this afternoon, and while it was very somber, I will always remember her fighting spirit, and how she would’ve wanted me to fight for my goals and dreams.

2018 thus far has also brought happiness, since Andy and I have finally begun planning for our wedding. Losing Johanna caused me to think deeply about my plans in life. It can change for us at any time. A week after Johanna’s death, Andy and I began the process of contacting the church where we will get married. As happy as we are about this decision, it’s also brought some unexpected stress, and due to a last minute change we’re searching for a reception venue that’s affordable for our budget. Aside from this, we can’t wait to have the date set in stone.

So far 2018 has brought its share of experiences and life lessons, and the events will continue to unfold in the weeks ahead. No matter what comes my way I must stay focused on my dreams, and pursue the things I truly enjoy.

June 20, 2018: Wednesday Thoughts

  • Today it was one of those ‘feeling-all-over-the-place’ kind of days. With me beginning to plan a wedding, having many work tasks, and thinking about my family’s well-being, my thoughts have been swirling a lot.
  • I got to bring over new instruments for my classroom today. I brought a new small drum and new shakers. The children loved playing with the new additions!
  • Realizing that certain ‘friends’ beliefs fall on the wrong side of history is an eye-opener.

June 19, 2018: Busy Work Day and Wedding Process

It’s a busy week at work…since my center is up for accreditation in a couple weeks, everyone is making sure their rooms are in the best shape. There were so many things in my classroom lying around in places where it shouldn’t have, and I threw a lot of things away. It was deeply cleansing, in a way. And of course there’s much more I need to take care of. But the rough part is completed.

After work Andy and I had a meeting with one of the deacons at our local church. This step is for a member of the church to get to know us and make sure we’re registered at the church (one of us needs to be). Now we just need to speak to someone about nailing down a date (whom I emailed a little while ago). I’m feeling a mixture of nervousness and excitement. Hopefully we’ll get the date we requested!